In My Past {Sasuke Uchiha One-Shot for MikaYukiko}

Sacrifice those you love and the life you lived to bring forth the life you want.

It is tiresome being a ninja. Of course, it's not as tiresome as my old life. Adoptive parents that hated me, a brother put up for adoption, a life where I was forced to keep high grades. I hated it.

"Mika, did you forget we were supposed to be training?"

I turn around to look at the dark eyes of Sasuke Uchiha. "Yeah," I admit. "I guess I got distracted."

"I understand if it's eating, but how did you get distracted if you're in a tree?"

I shrug. "It's a nice way to take my mind off of my past."

He obviously thinks I'm talking about the past given to me upon my arrival here. The one where everyone in my village was killed when I was five and I was taken to the leaf village and placed under the car of Kakashi, my squad's leader, until I graduated from the ninja academy and became a ninja.

I head back with Sasuke, and upon arrival I'm told to spar. Sasuke and I are sparring partners today. As we fight, I find my mind slipping away. I am seeing the anger of my parents as they slap me and lock me in my room for getting a B on a math quiz.

I snap back to reality when my kunai flies from my hand and I am pinned against a tree with a kunai at my neck. My chocolate brown eyes are wide.

"What happened?" Sasuke asks. "Your moves were sloppy. Usually it takes a while to disarm you."

"It's nothing," I say as I push him away. "I'm just tired."

"Then maybe you should rest," Kakashi says.

I shake my head. "It's nothing that rest will help."

"Is it about your past?"

I nod. I know it's not the past that they think. Even so, I am thinking of my past.

"It's not like you to get distracted," Sasuke says. "What part is bothering you?"

"It's nothing," I say, my voice raising. "I think I'll take your offer and rest, Kakashi-sensei." I quickly run off.

When I'm in my house, I curl onto the couch and hug my knees. In truth, I've been wondering what would have happened if I had refused the deal to come here. It's not like I even remember why I took the deal. I just took it. After a dream where I graduated from high school, got a scholarship to a good college, and raised a fantastic family with no contact with my adoptive parents at all, I've been thinking of it a lot. All I've done here is put my life in danger. Being a ninja is an honor, I know. But why did I take this deal?

I change out of my training clothes and put on a pair of shorts with a black cami. I then tie my brown hair up into a ponytail. I feel my right shoulder without realizing it. I cringe. It's still tender.

"Maybe that's why," I tell myself. I received this scar the day I was offered the deal. It was from getting the second highest test score in my science class. I think that's why I decided to take it. I was tired of abuse for failing. They spat words like "failure" and "pathetic excuse for a human being" at me. And I just took it.

Now I'm in tears. I don't even hear the door open. In walks Sasuke, though I don't even notice. I'm too absorbed in crying. Ninja aren't supposed to cry. I know that. So why can't I stop?

A warm arm wraps around me, and before I realize it I'm crying into Sasuke's chest. Normally I wouldn't do that.

"What happened to the laid-back, carefree, lazy, and sarcastic girl I knew so well?" he asks. "The girl with brains that rival my own. The girl that never lets others see her pain and flips out if someone else is in pain? The girl I fell in love with?"

I feel my cheeks go red. "She's still here," I say through tears, though it's quiet. "She just needs to let it out once in a while."

"She can tell me her pain," he says. "I'm sure I can help her out."

I look up at him. His eyes are actually sad. It hurts me to think I caused him sadness. I lean up and press my lips into him, but it's only for a moment. I quickly pull away, my cheeks now an even deeper shade of red. "I love you, Sasuke," I whisper.

He smirks. "I love you too."

"Yeah, you already told me that." I press my lips back into his. This moment replaces all the ones in my pasts, and I suddenly remember why I took the deal.

"I'll really get to meet Sasuke? And I'll get to be with him?"

So, I sacrificed it all for this one moment of happiness. I don't know about you, but I think I took a pretty good deal.